The screaming, the silence after
The pain, the numbness after
It’s been over 10 years
I remember you still
I wonder, how many others did you kill?
You killed me, my mom and dad
All my friends too
How many more souls will you claim?
How long did you think I would stay silent?
I have not met you ever since
You do visit me in my dreams sometimes.
It used to be scary – made me rise in fits or anxiety attacks
But now I don’t even wince
Do you ever think about me?
Do you have any regrets at all?
I used to think of ending my life
But I am still here, alive and well
I want you to know that I forgave everything
We all suffer don’t we?
We make mistakes because of the pain we endure
I wonder where you are
Now the dreams seem strange
You never even say hello
I just see myself running away, smiling and laughing
I guess that’s just a sign
I have moved on with my life
Surrounding myself with loved ones
A couple of true, warm and honest friends –
That’s all I ever needed
Have you found what keeps you happy?
I hope you will stop preying on innocent lives
I hope you find help, just like I did
We don’t get to choose the kind of life we are dealt
But we can choose what we do with it
I hope you will make the right decision
There’s always hope in this world
It only gets better
I will be praying for you